Saturday, November 27, 2010

in real life

It has been a difficult last two weeks. The kids all seem to be going through different and needy phases of growing and developing right now and I have been struggling with a cough and cold all week.
On the whole, it has left me tired, sad, uncreative and somewhat depressed. I know lack of sleep is a big contributor but I can't seem to get ahead right now. Our friend and babysitter took the kids two days this week to give me time to rest. I used the time to clean and organize a badly disorganized house. The house is better but I am worse. Not surprising really. But I don't feel like myself and that is disconcerting. My friend Julie has taught me to remember "This too shall pass." But even that brings no comfort right now.
Shane has been very supportive but since he can't do much about the way the kids are responding nor can he cure the common cold, it feels very lonely.
The physio-therapist expressed some serious concern this week over Kate not walking or even standing yet. I felt like crying when we were talking during her therapy session.
Anyways this is just to say all is not really well and I don't know when it will be but I haven't abandoned this place.


  1. Anonymous3:28 PM

    Ah, Heath. My heart is with you. It really is. I KNOW those sad days. I know what it's like to feel kinda hopeless, like things aren't going to get better anytime soon. I certainly know what it's like to feel discouraged about our kids and their behaviour.
    I am praying for you. Really praying. Right now. I hope that you're feeling better soon. Please let me know how you're doing soon. And, call me! How about tomorrow (Monday) afternoon?
    I love you lots, and I'm sending you a big squeezing hug.


  2. Heather, even the psalmist in Psalm 42 asks "Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me?"

    I just finished reading "Me, Myself and Lies" and was absolutely and completely surprised to find out just how often we are told to rest in the Bible.

    Elijah didn't rest and -- even after his mountaintop experience in which all the prophets of Baal were defeated and the Lord glorified, remember, then the Spirit came upon him and he ran all the way down the mountain? -- he ended up fearful and depressed. He crawled under a bush and asked for his life to end and an angel appeared to him, making him eat, drink and rest - twice!

    Let your hope be in Him.

    ps It was so much fun to see pictures of you posted below!

  3. Anonymous11:14 PM

    I tried to leave a comment to you, Heather, while at U. David's, but the connection would not let me. But be sure I was carrying you, to the only place I know, and asking our Father to draw you to His word as the only solace there really can be.
    In His love, and mine

  4. Julie, I know you know and I'm glad to know I'm not alone. You mean so much to me and I miss you so often. Love to you and that beautiful baby!

    Thank you, Richele for your words and for your Psalm. Rest is a wonderful gift. I take it for granted.

    Mom, thank you for praying as you are so faithful in doing. I appreciate you more and more each day. ♥

  5. Just reading this now. I hope as the week has gone by that you are encouraged and that the Lord has ministered to you.

    I can relate to feeling down and lonely. In a place where nobody but the Lord can reach. I will pray tonight that you feel His presence there.


  6. And thank you, Vanessa for your words as well. I feel so loved by you all. ♥


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